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07 December 2009

let's bet.

this week is going to be very very very very very hectic BECAUSE,

there's so many things to do and there's so many things to say. alright, so the bet is...
IF i survive throughout this week, i think i deserve a Swensens Ice Cream. L O L!
IF i complain in this blog here, that's it man. i treat you Swensens Ice Cream back.

amaciam?

however, i'd love you with all my heart if you give me a Nokia 5800 for FREE. nyahahaha EH don't be crazy lah. don't be out of your mind okay.

so, here's a random post. i was inserting my thumbdrive and this box appeared.

HAHAHA it sounds so damn wrong lah. i think i'm changing my Thumbdrive name to Pretty can? hehe. nahh i'll think of something later.

anyway just so you know, i didn't follow my mom to Melaka. so i stayed home alone this few days with my dad only. yes he's getting better. i took 2 hours urgent leave just now to visit my dad with Ibu.

do you know what happened to my dad?
why he got admitted to the hospital?

let me tell you the ONLY reason why...

because of,

too much of it.
since young when he was 15.

my father was breathless right? because his breathing gap i think, is narrow. which leads to him being breathless. and the phlegm in the chest area is too thick he keeps coughing and coughing.

just a reminder, i don't mean to offend any of you okay.
don't smoke too much. but it's okay, i'm not stopping you but the consequences is double the trouble.

so, to my future boyfriend (i don't know when or if it's gonna happen anyway) or my husband in 7 years time. HA HA. don't smoke! if you smoke, aahh, i'll be your worst nightmare. XD

peacee.

mockingbird

06 December 2009

i was happily doing my report when i received a call from my mother.

"Kakak, ayah is admitted to the hospital."

i was so SHOCKED i didn't see that coming.

my father looked fine just now before he went off to work.
only that he coughed so hard in the toilet and i could hear him from my room.
gosh i didn't notice that until my mom told me he's sick.

and he still went for work.

i thought i'm supposed to wait for my dad to reach home now because he's supposed to reach home around 6 plus.

great. and i'm waiting for my mom, my bro and my sis to reach home from Melaka and then we head off to Changi Hospital.

it's funny how i never thought that my mom or my dad would be warded in the hospital. i so pity my dad. :(

ish, anyhoos.

damn funny!

i was sleeping lah. suddenly my father poked me. i was wondering "Why my father woke me up so early?".

surprisingly he asked me, "What time Kakak go to school today?"

in my mind, i was laughing my ass off because who goes to school on Sunday? haha but true lah, i was supposed to go to school just now for rehearsal at Dome but i couldn't make it. reports babe. banyaks gilers. BUT, i couldn't laugh in front of him so i told him, "No school today ayah."

yesterday.

i almost had a heart-attack.
my father woke me up so early in the morning at 5am on a Saturday. actually, i can just wake up at 6.30 for Morning Prayer. so, he left for work already. i knew. i closed my eyes and almost off to Lala land. suddenly at 6.45am,

KRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNGGG!

my goodness my heart did not skipp but it almost jump out of my ribs man. terperanjat giler.

haha. selamba tapi kelakar. hahaha.

okay lah i want to get ready already.

love your mummy and daddy okay.
i love you too.

gangstas don't know how to act

03 December 2009

senoritas and senoritos,

i thought i lost my wallet.
because i couldn't find my wallet anywhere at home!
i searched it everywhere, under my pillow, on my bed, hall, kitchen, room
just EVERYWHERE.

i was so pissed at myself 'cos i keep forgetting where i put my stuffs and the fact that i forget things EASILY.

i recalled what happened yesterday.
maybe if i left it in the clubroom.
or probably someone stole it from my bag or something.

i felt so sad.
i was thinking,
What is wrong with me nowadays?
come on tell me. did i do anything wrong to any of you?
please tell me because i don't want to live like this.
haha no bad incidents please.

lest, when i went out of the house, my sister called. and you know what?

SHE FOUND THE WALLET IN MY PILLOW SHEET. pillow sheet.

if i can curse or swear, i would say this,
"dfnhasiohgohgidhgofhighdfuhygifingfnnudfsbfubsuipoweieryitrih!"

is it because of Fisherman's Friend or Halls that made me forget things easily? because i ate those almost everyday. so it's weird. they say that if a person consumes too much, there will be a laxative effect.

so senoritas and senoritos, i want to share with you something about laxative effect. since i "researched" about it just now. hehe.

Definition: Laxative effect
a laxative (or purgative) is a food, compound, or medication
when consumed either induces bowel movements, or loosens the stool
generally taken when a person has constipation
Laxative abuse can be found among people with aneroxia nervosa, an eating disorder
Too many laxatives will often result in diarrhea.
Unexpected side-effect of some chewing gums:
Some chewing gum sweeteners have a laxative effect.

A study published in the British Medical Journal found that many sugar-free chewing gums have sorbitol, a sweetener.

Sorbitol is a laxative which is poorly absorbed by the small intestine. Too much sorbitol intake can lead to significant weight loss. The warning came after doctors treated two patients who had chronic diarrhea, abdominal pain and dangerously excessive weight loss.

so does this mean that i can lose weight by consuming sugar-free products often?
HAHA.

again

01 December 2009

being alone is not bad.
i kinda think that you're being more independent and you don't have to depend on someone else.

it is definitely a nice feeling because you feel calm and peaceful.
and, being alone makes you think about matters you never thought of.

BUT, eating alone is a bit paisey. haha! because i end up eating on the stairs.

anyway, today is my BAD DAY. it's like someone put a bad curse on me you know.

Incident 1:
i forgot where i placed my thumbdrive. i searched everywhere at home; from my room to the hall, from the hall to my room, to my father's room, to the kitchen. i still cannot find my thumbdrive! WHY do i always keep forgetting? it's irritating.

Incident 2:
while searching for my thumbdrive, i banged onto the wall.
when i was closing the gate, my finger got stubbed by it.

Incident 3:
i was FIVE minutes late again! when i'm already late and i received a warning about it. well, mainly because of the slow traffic from Sengkang-Punggol to Yishun. imagine that.

Incident 4:
I almost slipped in the toilet.

Incident 5:
i was holding an evelope full of notes and coins. i HAD to turn it the other way round and ALL the coins fell on the ground.

Incident 6:
only God knows. HAHA

after school, i'm going off to Centrepoint to meet my aunt there. alone.. OH.. lol.

asal nasib aku macam gini? benci.

and in my mind i want you here

29 November 2009

HELLO!

hehe.

i watch New Moon already! yaaaaay!

i really thought the movie is available on the 3rd of December. luckily, i went out yesterday to Orchard with Neela, Hanisah, Julyha, and Wan to buy stuffs from Art Friend. and jyeah we watched it alreadyy. hahaha. happy lah.

finally can go out watch movie. =D

oh yes.

thanks to my brother and sister, i'm addicted to this game.

haha i wasn't very interested in this game actually. well i THOUGHT it was boring. so i rejected the offer to play it A LOT of times. i basically told my brother, "Later lah" again and again.

until i tried. it was cool! knowing me, i am always the loser in ANY games if i HAVE to play with my brother. he's like the all time winner for all the games lah. which is so unfair. but you don't want too see me win, i'd smile like i won one million dollars.

this Friday, i'm off to Melaka to attend my cousin's wedding on Saturday. which means that i won't be in school. yeah, balik kampung. hmmmmmmm.

oops! Deja Vu.

no harm please

26 November 2009

it's so weird.

how one situation can change more than 1 people.

i've been thinking and reflecting lately.

the things i've done,
the things i've said,
i wonder if it all made sense.

i wonder if i'm partly true and also wrong at the same time.
but looking at the situation, it's not a win-win situation or a win-lose situation.
neither.

reading back those messages
and thought about what happened back then,
i ask myself again and again,
"where did i went wrong?"

because for me,
i'd rather check out my mistakes and correct it.
even though the truth hurts but what the heck, as long as you get it right.

you see, there's no other place for me to express except for this blog here.
so whatever i say here, ends here.

and yes, i don't mean to offend anyone.
i just want to have a say here so please and thank you.

anyway,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI SEMUA!

oooo, yes ah! i can dress up sooon. nyahahaha.

superman

25 November 2009

presenting to you,

WARNING

if you're a guy, it's best if you don't read this. hehe.

and if you're a girl, you can join in too! haha.

*melts*

ever seen a perfect guy before?

tall,

tan,

spiky hair (LOL & soemtimes like Superman haha),
nice abs,

fit,

muscular a bit,

cute voice...

gosh. whenever he passes you, you go "O.M.G aaaaaaaahhhh"

well, obviously not making it obvious DUH.

if it's me answering that question, then YES i've seen that guy before. and still. present. =D

but right, he's not a Muslim.

sayang eh?

nevermind, eye candy. hee.

oh yes. actually i want to tell you that this....

is apparently my current obsession. nyahahahaha.

you know i know, public don't know.

i mean, i've been consuming this whenever my throat rebels. and that somehow is my breakfast every morning because i don't want to irritate people by doing the eeeeee'hem sound. 'cause i don't like it myself.

jyeah. for those who know, kindly shut your mouth. XD

there will be lunchtime performance later at 12pm and StageArts Drama is performing! do come down to the Atrium and support us okay. 'cause basically, the noisiest crowd is the StageArts people.

support us! thank you!

happy birthday

24 November 2009

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO A.L.O.N.G!

i'm so sorry i couldn't wish you yesterday. but i pray that you ace your exams okay dear.

just so you know, she's my cousin in Johor. she's my mom's twin sister's daughter. haha do you get that? well i thought she'd be there in Melaka on the 5th of December but to no avail, she has to prepare for her upcoming exams. :(

anyway, i've been longing to say this.

I WANT TO GO OUT AND DRESS UP AND WATCH MOVIE WITH ANY AVAILABLE HUMAN BEING.

because, before i die of boredom, i want to have fun. i spend 3/4 of my time in school already i want to spend time for myself too. am i right? or am i right?

and and, because i bought this new clothes that i'm dying to wear. ahaha from Cotton On, budget a biit. lol. but it's still nice.

alright. i got to go for briefing.

dah ada orang sound lah.

i betcha.

22 November 2009

this is more than a dream, it's supreme.

hello you! miss me?

lol. if you miss me, thank you MWAH MWAH.
if not, it's okay.

okay guess what?
i just got to know about "power nap". and how i got to know about it? by my sister!
well because i took the Kendarat job near my place under Ghufran. so, i was tired and i fell asleep for an hour while watching Kung Fu Panda with my adik-adik at home.

when i woke up, i was surprisingly FRESH as ever, like right now. moreover, my sister told me that i'll probably sleep at around 3am but i don't want. i don't want to reach school late anymore, i hate it. i bet that the warning letter is travelling right now to my place... *sobs*

anyway, we watched Terasa last Friday together. we, i mean StageArters. and, and, Haz was there too! talk about Terasa, my camera is flooded with Ama and July's faces okay. haha thank goodness my camera is still fine. cih.

you know, i'm having bad lucks. because honestly, i encounter annoying situations like being late for 6 minutes and my supervisor will be informed and i'll get a warning letter that's gonna pull down my grades. UGH. how worst can it be?

i am broke and i have no idea what i did with the money that i've been saving for my new phone. my mom hasn't been cooking at home and she's always tired (which i don't think is bad luck for me, i just want to complain though haha). yah. there's more but i can't remember.

well, i'm watching Twilight later. lol you know why? because i will definitely fall asleep while watching that. haha.

BYE.

wasted trying to find a reason to say

18 November 2009

i want to be a good friend
but i'm not a perfect human being.

i'm sick and tired and totally disappointed.

i can't believe you blew her off.
dang, what happened to you?

you're not the usual you that you have been.
and i'm sorry to say that i barely know you man.

how special are we if you don't spare a few minutes for us.
then there's no point saying.

honestly i don't have the perfect soft words to say
but what a disappointed person can say right?

"absence makes the heart grows fonder"
well let's see about that.

you know we missed you like mad,
but then again, waiting too long doesn't make it right.

we are now speechless.
we are now lost for words.

it's like we don't know what else to do or what else to say
because it hit straight to our faces.

so much for needing us,
but we don't see it and we ain't feeling it no more.

yes we have to go through so many things in life
but there are other things that are important

and if you miss it,
darn you miss it all

i'm done.
don't question.

it's really hard to express this you know.